Adri In Real Life.

What an interesting last couple weeks its been…

It feels like its been a million years since i’ve updated this thing, even thought its only been about a week and a half or so probably….. who knows. I’m not keeping track.

I’m just sitting here alone in my new apartment, chillin in my undies listening to Cat Power. Couple of thoughts here: 

1. Walking around your house in undies is a wonderful thing. More people should do it if they don’t already. Especially during the summer. Why where clothes when your home alone? Makes no sense to me. (Just lock you’re door.)

2. Cat Power is great. It’s been awhile since I’ve listened to her, and I just recently downloaded her discography after hearing a track of hers in this record store I go to. I forgot how wonderful her music can be. 

Needless to say, its been a nice evening. I spend my first day (hopefully of many) using the fitness center in my apartment building. I had the entire room to myself, so it felt nice to do whatever I wanted to do without people peeking at you. 

Then I spent a good amount of time in the pool/hot tub. Just by myself. I wanted to swim with my friend Lauren, but she had to go to class. Stupid class… But it was nice chillin by myself. I don’t do that enough.

In fact, the thought has been going in and out of my mind lately that I’ve kinda lost touch with myself. I should be spending more time reflecting, reading good books, journaling, listening to good music that feeds the soul, not just stuff I can move to. I think if that stuff is good… then everything is good. That’s what I think. 

So this should be a nice summer. It’s started off well anyway. The only thing that will complete my incomplete life is having a job that gives me money. My show is going to be fun, and a great experience… and will pay me diddly squat. And it doesn’t help knowing that everyone and there mother is searching for work everywhere right now. “I started looking for work months ago people!!! There’s nothing out there!” is what I say to them. I’m still looking though…. Ha.

Anyway, those are all my thoughts for the moment. More later i’m sure. Happy Summer all. 

ps. i got alittle tan today. trust me… its exciting. 

I’m feeling alittle cut off from society these days… 

Probably my fault in the long run, but I kinda wanna get out of the slump. Being comfortable is great, and I like having to do nothing. But I like having something to do to… I miss all my APU friends a lot. I haven’t seen hardly any of them since 42nd Street closed. 

Something about me thats weird is… if im not out doing things all the time, I just start to kinda fade into the background, therefore I have no need to jump back in the game… which is just sad cause I like being in the game.

In the long run… I’m my own worst enemy. Sucks.

I’m auditioning for a new show tonight, so I hope that goes well. It will give me something great to do during the summer. And i’ll be needing to find another job, which I’m kinda anxious for. I determined to feel good about the time I’ve spend by the end of the summer. DETERMINED. 

Plus having money to spend again will be a great feeling. :D

You know what’s dumb? Fighting in relationships…… in the long run, its just stupid. At the end of the day, you Love someone so much you just forget what you even fought about. It’s a sign you really love someone. If they can piss you off, but you can forget it after its all over, you must love them for real. Or be even MORE in love with them after a fight… 

I feel really good today. 

Oh man… I got such an urge right now to eat alot of Oranges… I think I’m just thirsty, and soda just isn’t doin it…. HA! ORANGE SODA!!!…… no no, that’s not what I want…

Today was such an interesting day… me and a group of friends were asked to sing a Rent song at this Christian conference thing in Irvine, which we did. It was such a random gig to have to have to drive out there twice, both times taking about at leased an hour and a half to get there. But I got to sing in front of a buttload of random people which was kinda fun! And I guess pretty worth the money they were willing to pay for us.  

Just made me excited more for the future. I like singing for random things, something I think I used to really be afraid of when I was younger, which was stupid cause I still did a lot of singing. But to kind of master that random fear and make it my bitch (lol) feels kinda nice…. and sorta relieving. Kinda makes you feel like you could do anything. 

I have to go back to my High School again tomorrow, which I’m kinda dreading…… OH the things we do for money…. Good lord I need a real job…

Its been kinda nice being payed here and there for small jobs, taking care of puppies and sleeping in. But I’m just not being active enough…. nor am I really involved yet it what I really want to be doing…. sure I’ve got a few more auditions here and there, but its starting to feel like wasted time every now and then. I’m determined at leased so im thankful for that.

On a yucky note, I just found out from my roomie Colleen, that the two other girls in the apartment are moving out and gave absolutely no notice either Colleen or myself till now, which sucks since they’re planning on moving out the first of May. This probably affects Colleen way more than me, since I was never really a permanent resident in their house….. and I spend way more time at Larry’s than I do over there… but it does kinda suck to think that I’m back a square one again with no where to live. So I gotta figure out what’s going to happen with that in the next month or so. Oh my life is such an adventure…

But i’m just so over it now. Haha…like, its old news now that I have no where to live, no job, and no place to start. It just doesn’t even scare me anymore, which Im choosing to look at as a good thing. Till then, I’m going to end this here cause I REALLY wanna wake Larry up from his nap. :)

I can’t BELIVE how hot it’s gotten in the past couple days. .  RIDICULOUS is what it is is what it is…

I’ve been helping my mom out at my old high school the past couple days with costumes for the musicale there putting on at the end of this week… and i’d just like to say. .  thank GOD im no longer in High School! It just brought back so many unpleasant feelings. Calvary is a bubble!!! Granted, they are good people for the most part, and I grew up in the place. And I really don’t regret it…  but it doesn’t mean I like being there again for long periods of time. It’s a time of my life I’d rather keep in my past. 

Being home [home meaning my moms house] for a couple days, can be weird too. It’s such a different atmosphere from Larry’s. It’s hot in here and I want ice cream and a pool. I’m getting very fond memories of running after the ice cream truck so I can gobble up a Ninja Turtle ice cream. .  you know, the ones with gumballs for eyes. :D

I miss Larry and the puppies. They bring such a comfort. When I left the house today, the puppies seemed so sad that I was leaving… and they looked like they didn’t feel very good from all the heat. I wanted to take them with me really bad… I can’t wait to take them to the dog park for the first time. Preferably by the beach. 

Anyways, just thought I’d start a completely different blog system for a completely different type of blogging. More for myself to write things down that go on in my head than for the public eye. But public eye can read away if they’d like too as well :)

More thoughts too come. Today was a good day. HOT. But good. More High School adventures tomorrow… ugh . .  I’m hoping the nights will still stay in the high 70’s low 80’s. Perfect nights to lay outside and look at the stars.